I'm in love with my own sins!

home at 1.21am on a Sunday morning. Feel so wasted!BORING! Had a choice to go neverlands but chose to go home. Had a choice to head down commonwealth but chose to go home. now that im home, im grumpy about being at home. TSK. Maybe i should have a sleep over soon. getting too used to my bed that im feeling sick of it. Anyways! Went to Top1 to sing like finally on Thursday. Went out 8am in the morning, when i stepped onto my lift lobby, had this urge to just skipped work. called up baby, went to fetch him and headed to gombak's polyclinic. Tsk, come to think of it, its not like yishun dont have a polyclinic. Why did i go throught the hassle of the jammed expressway. But worst thing was i waited for 3 frigging hours just to get that one piece of smaller than a4 size paper.

Followed on was lunch and movie at JB. And then got ourself lost in bugis/little india, got me mad like crazy but still, KTV-ed. Getting lost on a heavy traffic situation is the worst to happened. And with the ERP gantries. I should claim from the government uh, it wasnt my fault. and east coast for supper! SEAFOOD. my craves, satisfied. Thanks baby. Fruitful day uh. literally used up near to full tank of fuel. If only fuel was as cheap as in JB.

Best thing about Friday was that its a PUBLIC HOLS, NO WORK ALTHOUGH WITHOUT MC! slept till 4pm. Damn shiok or what. 14 hours of sleep. Followed by pub with zhi yeow, baby and friends at punggol end. The cornering road was power. then sang again, suppered AGAIN then home.

Full day at chijmes today, shagged, and annoyed by guests. Wanted to be home badly, now im regretting i came back too early. Whats up later!

This long weekend makes me wana skip work for the rest of my life.

PLS LET MY 4D STRIKE TOMORROW! I SWEAR I'LL BE PURE VEGETARIAN FOR A WEEK AND GO TO THE TEMPLE WEEKLY FOR A MONTH!

2 more hours and i'll be off work and im freezing! I'm 1 week less nearer to half of my attachment journey. now i understand what they mean by u'll be counting down through the whole of attachment. not being able to sleep when u're seriously bored and sleepy would have been the best torture to me. waking up 7am in the morning; inhuman. interns should have better welfare of starting an hour late and end an hour early since most of the time we've nth to do. 10am to 5pm. then our lunch hours should be extended cause we tend to miss our school mates. so lunch from 1 - 3pm, every week we should meet LO on Friday so that we still feel belong-ed to the school. so we work from monday to thursday. perfect.

i cant wait to get my ass at jb again. im craving for seafood! crayfish, stingray, prawns. omg. and i wana get facial done. i look like shit now. and, i wana go rounding. visit white house at punggol, och. haven't attend any parties lately. friday's a public hols! WIND IT UPP!

right now, i crave of mahjong.
tsk, cant imagine how crazy i will get if you were to lock me home all day.
1hr 15min to knock off!

Just hopped to F's blog. She dint even bothered to mention me. omg, so annoyingly insignificant already. Tsk. Denying that she's being a married man's scandal to me and now mention she's enjoying it. Sigh. See, i told you that 3 years of singlehood makes you crave of proving yourself a lady. One day i might hear you say you spent a night in the office! hah!

Today marks the end of the weekend again. Back to office tomorrow. Life have been better there alrdy i must admit. Though still preferred sales line where I can talk and talk and banquets are still the best for me, i'll just make the best out of this shit for another 3 more months. especially after i've been transferred to another department after 2 more weeks. definitely am gona get an A for the attachment. Am aiming; am getting. :D

Felt like i've been losing alot of my contacts lately. whom i used to hang out with, im not exactly very busy but my time seems to be all thrown to work and work and boyf. more to work i guess. Significant people that used to make drastic changes in my life like zr,cw,jh,gf,riders and supper with joboy and f! i wonder when the hell is it gona happen. the financial liabilities im carrying is driving me krazy.

baby's birthday, christmas, followed by new year approaching! See, thats where all my money goes!

Things to do before '09 ends :
1. change bike's tyres
2. get an A in my log book
3. go sing my lungs out
4. slim down to 48kg (that have been on the list for a year)
5. shop for my biker jacket (on the list for months)
6. go for another short overseas trip
7. go for facial
8. bake something nice for colleagues
9. buy baby's long sleeve top and anklet -.-
10. get my tattoo done
11. get my teeth whitened

though i woke up at 2pm just now, time to slp! tomorrow's half day at work. GOOD FOR ME!
xoxo!

Welcome to my office! omg. im seriously so bored in the office that im blogging again. F's not online! anyway, alot of catch ups to do before my last entry. yea. my baby's not sold in the end! yes, my bike's still with me. :D and some major operation gona go on on her. change of tyres, fairrings, levers. decided to do away with the overhaul since huat said he did it for me 2 months ago. lets not waste money on the unnecessaries.

oh anyway, my stalking habit started to act up few days back. hahaha! sounds pathetic but it was just another random act of boredom and curiosity i guess. the more you tend to care, the more you wana find out. what they used to say, however the more you find out the more u're hurting urself. not so much of hurting for me, but uncomfortable. thats y i always say, what i wana find out. i will always know the truth. im resourceful. lol. although the age gap was just merely months away, the most a year++ but it seems like they're years younger. trying to not be prejudiced, maybe what she wrote wasnt exactly of what their life is before. so, idk. but i do feel the rs going down. getting more short-tempered, less patience, more quarrels, less fun.

and i was thinking, my poly life is going towards the end alrdy. with my gpa dropping every sem, what am i gona do after my school years. through these years, what i have been doing is fullfilling my short goals of wants. working for the present usage, schooling for the sake of i-dont-know-what, buying my bike for whatsoever-reason and then scrap it 3 years ltr. attachment makes me realise i dont like to sit here whole day, it makes me grumpy, therefore its definitely not my type of job. if i were to continue on to university, i might just back out. highly likely possible since i long knew im not as cloned to books.so, whats next for my life? and, whats next for this relationship?

when i was a kid, i wana grow up fast. as i grew older, i wana be younger. Human are troublesome.

ahhh, its been long. and i've returned from bintan trip for weeks! 2nd trip out of town with baby excluding the countless JB trips. Bintan was seriously a place for just chill. went for massage and scrubs, relaxed. nothing else. and its 4 more months to end of itp! ahh. im so lazy im gona update next time. HAPPY HALLOWWEEEENNN! And i went to sci center or halloween! followed by supper with girlf and thai disco with workmates. right. Talk later!

omg. i can't believe im actually blogging in the office. thats de extend of my boredom. I was wondering, maybe i can like blog till lunch time. I'll have a few pages of essay already. Right. Life really sucks for attachments. especially with the pay. really felt like im here for cheap labour. doing stuffs that others dont want to do. like filing. while what others can do, you cant. they can actually face book right under the nose of my dept manager while im being watched like i was a kid. definitely, im the youngest among the aunties here but when there's really nothing to do, shouldnt this kinda stuff be dealt with by closing one eye. sigh.

anyways, have been riding to work for the 2nd day. dont really dared to ride in high traffic ever since the 2nd accident. like what the instructors said, experiences are gained from accidents. lol. good thing is, I can reach office earlier by half an hour or so, bad thing is, i have to cut the cars if not i'll be jammed with them. can't wait till march to end attachment. though already getting used to this routine of working, lesser complaining, i still dont like to be stuck here for 1/3 of my day. dont office have night shifts! have been working chijmes for the weekends too. it seems like im having 1 or 2 off days every 12 days of work. feel so inhuman suddenly. i should start feeding on batteries.

had a catch up session with old khakis. havent seen them for months! seriously, ever since poly life's a bore. the only good thing i have in sp would be F, J and baby. just had a recent big quarrel with him though. rs can be a real hassle at times. oh, and bintan trip should be up next. prolly next week if there're no more hiccups. initial planning was last week. but it kept dragging and dragging for idk what reason. i was actually hoping for a weekend out of town every mth but, not very practical i guess. MONEY MONEY! and after im selling my bike within this 2 weeks, i'll be back to normal for my spendings! totally not agreeable to selling away my bike, but the expenses are not what i can afford. i would have to save and scrimp for the installment, fuel and especially accidents. the big scar on my waist doent seem to look like it will go away. and i havent even shop for months! havent have had nice day out to pamper myself! ok i was talking about bintan. was really excited about it at first. the thought of seaview hotel, beaches, water sports, drinking sounds really appealing to me. but now, i rather just have a sleepover, or clubbing session, volleyball session, whatever that is more reality and that i can relax and forget about money and work. why should a 18 year old school girl be worrying about money siaaa! time check, half an hour passed. okie. im gona go blog a private entry now. omg. mitch so pathetic.

whats cynical?

I was shocked when i clicked on my blog link. I actually forgot i changed my blog skin the last time I came in, which is nearly a month ago. no actually its just half a month ago. Im so dissappointed F actually met with joboy without me! AWWWW. I wasn't invited. wad bitches! attachment still sucks at this point of time, cleared 2 MCs already. that 2 days was heaven. slept and eat and slept and eat. Thumbs up! Besides that, Im still gona say, my office's too international and there's a witch who seems to live there. When i was early for work, she's earlier than me. When i go for lunch, she's still there. when im back from lunch she's there too. when i leave work, SHE IS STILL SITTING THERE. Dont she have a life? Or am I too young to understand what is called LIFE-IS-NOT-FUN. I cant seem to enjoy myself in the office. Too grumpy and not adaptable. So so so much preferred chijmes. Tell me to work chijmes everyday 9-6, I'll be more than happy.

Met up with weizhong recently, awkwardly, coincidentaly. My, he haven't changed an inch. Not the height, not the size, not the style, not the way he talk. I was wondering, what am I like to him. Afterall, its the worst ending relationship among my not-so-many relationships.

And like part of my life, my honda baby. Selling it off soon i guess. Have been giving me alot of problems like a burden. Haven been able to start my bike myself recently due to the low battery. Sigh. Whats the point of having a pretty bike when the rider's a noob. Okay, not a noob, a rookie sounds better :D

Cant wait for bintan trip. Relax and cut off all connections! WOOOO!  

yes. literally i am counting down to the end of my itp. that is how much i hate and dread going to office every single day. I had to say things are getting slightly better this week since im busy most of the time, but still i still feel like a dog. being called over and bossed around. damn that witch. as a matter of fact, she's really not as evil as i described. im just biased against her cause i seriously hate attachment. all the early wake ups. never feel so HOMED before like today. all i want to do is sit here, watch my season 3 of gossip girl and beverly hills! waited for the new seasons for sooooo long already! Im missing out alot in life. 5 days a week im sulking. thats worse than PMS!

memories never left my mind, did they?
tsk. whats with this melodramaticness and childishness.

I NEED TO TALK TO GIRLFSSSSSS!

damn it. i just typed a whole chunk i pressed back accidently. omg. annoyed. no im lazy to  retype. i was saying that. amazingly, i miss school! Miss the slack outs and bitching with bubble tea. AND I MISS F! haha. and i got attached to star shipping agencies. in a female department. except for ONE guy. and no smokers. sigh. sound kinda pathetic. sit in front of the pc whole day doing B/L for ships and documenting. Felt so usesless. for the pathetic pay. Im sick of complaining. Thinking of the 450 bucks make me feel like i havent been so broke in my life before. especially with the expense of my bike. she's still in Emergency room in the workshop. For her, i had to save and scrimp. Dont even wana go shop nor anywhere. I've alot of place in mind i wana go!
I wana have a stayover night
I wana ice skate
I wana reggae
I wana have a 14 hr non-disturb sleep
I wana have a relaxing holiday
I wana sing K
I wana mahjong
I wana shop
I wana have my personal MIA time!
Now im tied to nowhere but home and work. god damn it. definitely not happy about it. ahh. im having back aches and shoulder aches. shall continue updating soon. PC screen makes me sick. i can even type without looking already. THANK YOU, ATTACHMENT.

I haven done anything crazy recently.
CHEER ME UP LEH! GIVE ME A BIG SURPRISE!





and... i still think of you.

Exams week. Half the week gone. The week passes like the longest week ever. However,

3 - Down
2 - To go

Shall not mention how i perform for the papers. wait till my GPA's back. Insurance law tomorrow. Alot of memorizing, alot of killing of my precious brain cells which i dont even want to use them in my normal daily life. Sigh. Big sacrifices. Exams should be sued for arson murder and lecturers who doesnt give tips can be sued for negligence of students' stress level leading to tortious liability. SEE, i actually studied. Getting verryy sleepy. Books aint made to be my bff.

Actually, I prefer to drink chinese tea than alcohol. I-AM-SERIOUS.

counting down 1.5 days to e end of my torturious week
counting down 2 days to girlf and hua's bday
counting down  5days to genting/kl trip with my boy
counting down 2 weeks or less to meeting my SP BABY!



Im still feeling unsure. Doesnt feel very right. HMMMM.

Im quitting school.

Exams bore me better than any other things that can exist. I rather like stare at a jelly for 24 hours than study for 6 hours! Im seriously very distracted this sem and everyone with eyes would agree with it. Even if i remodule, i bet nobody's gona be shock. Alright now, kill me! NOW NOW NOW!

An act of crankiness, please ignore.

Hey world, havent been updating! I GOT MY 2b license already! WOOO! with like bloody 6 points! Haha. i've been flaunting this since wednesday. Let me continue boasting this till a few more days then i promise to shut okae. Haha. And i bought my HONDA SP TODAY! like 3 hours ago! I dont really know if its worth it since its a FQ plate, manufactured in 1997, 3 more years of COE then i had to de-ride it. which means i have to throw it away, coe not renewable. Sigh. But anyway, yea i bought it. for 1.9k for the bike.. insurance not inclusive yet. And, i sprayed it red based with gold baby wings and my name below the pillion seat. Cant wait to see it in 2 weeks time! Lets hope the inside of the bike all and all is good! :D However, exams are just next week. Im so dead. Dint come home yesterday night, went mustafa with wt, drink, movied and home at 0730 this morning. Slept and bought bike. and there goes my saturday. AND NOW IM ACTUALLY SLEEPY. Damn. STUDY STUDY! After this week shall me genting/kl trip.. IMA ENJOY MYSELF! Cant i just skip my exams?

Life's good up to this point of time with you around wt! ;)

Now im confused. Am i attached or am i single?

Im supposed to be studying now. But im very very very very distracted. My excuse would be : Im too excited over TP! haha. And i actually have nothing to blog about since i skipped school and did nothing except for biking and chilling today. Hmm. have been hanging out with him like ALOT recently. He's a bloody stalker! bahaha. aww, actually I just blogged for the sake of typing. JUST-DOWAN -TO -STUDY!


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OHH. I rememebered. I've been haunted by him again again. I shall hire an assasin and have him killed soon. I really really dowan to talk to him laa. His problematicness leads me to complicate my life. Maybe someone can ask him to post me a mail instead. He can still be my penpal. Haha, I love reading handwritten letters!

whatever, mitch!

Im counting down exactly 7 days to my bike TP. Now already nervous that day im gona like faint on the spot. Haha. 3 friends took and 2 failed. I dont like the idea of that. Sigh. I've been booking like self practise and road riding every other day. But come to think of it, i cant see myself riding how would i know if im making a mistake! If im gona fail this, i would have to wait for another 1.5 months to 2 months for another TP and which would mean i would have to train to my attachment place which im sure its gona be like further than i go JB! Sigh. Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress Stress!

Instead of studying today, my attention was diverted to "the hangover" and trying Cuttle fish ink spaghetti at Ma Miamo with kwaytiao! Or was is Ma Miano or Ma Miago. Whatever la uh. Its a superrrrr cosy jap restaurant at central. Love the ambience. UP! And like finally tried the legendary black spaghetti. Chilled around clarke quay till 10 and headed home. Which leads to my conclusion for the day, accomplishment done : 0%

Haha. As long as i can get my bike license by this wed, i dont mind rushing my exams only after wed! Im gona work doubly hard for exams i promise and slp like 3 hours per day. JUST GIVE ME MY LICENSE PLSSSSSSSSS!

Tonight's street seems exceptionally quiet. Am i sounding like im emo or seriously it is quiet due to the weekdays. Haha. I can like count the number of human i met with on my way back home like half hour ago uh. Scary or what. And with the wind blowing blowing its like as if im in the wrong world. LOL. I feel super super super tired. so much so that i dont even want to talk now. Have i been missing out alot of sleep? i think i need to declare myself a day holiday to catch up with my sleep soon! Finally had a meet up session with jh and hakim on sat. Pictures at fb. Though was expecting more people and more fun and more stuffs and more memories. but seems like everyone's so busy ever since poly life. Feel kind of wasted. Seriously MISS THEM LIKE HELL. (: Having prac paper tomorrow, havent studied, and 2 projects gona be due soon and tp's next week and final term exams is in the week after next followed by ITP. It really is getting me stressed but im still not working hard enough. ima go study for tmr's paper now, sleep, and then maybe skip school after tmr's paper and get home get a full good rest and start mugging. that should be the planning for now. Haha. And, god bless me for TP. I've like 0.0005% confidence judging from what i perform in self-practice today. Sigh. Nothing gets done.

He called again. After so many times and again. I seriously dont like him going on and off. If u sincerely want to be a friend, im ok with it but whats with this on and off thing. It makes me feel like a fool. Dint i explain it like a million times before. What games are you trying to play. Im sick and tired. And i can repeat this another million time, i dont hate you. At least not now. I just dont like the way im being treated. In a way, glad that im still remembered, on the other hand, if u cant handle me, stay away from me. Its better for both of us.

I wana lay low and have a good rest.

Why is the same photo posted like at my every post. Like EEEE?!?! Teach me how to like change or remove? omg. livejournal noob. and i just blogged ytd and now im blogging. Im like super free this few days. Havent been working till late nor hanging out late nor biking till late. Its good to know im good. Hah. And guess what! I found my passport this morning! WOOO! But was late for my first class and i skipped my last class which makes me attending one class for today. Super waste of time to travel. Bus-ed to JB with kwaytiao, sia la that smoker made me think he's sucha nice and lovely boy who doesnt smoke. There goes your image at jb today, boy! Haha. Then cab-ed to jusco for A&W! Ehh. It actually taste quite normal to me. Was it the standard of msia's A&W or was it i've low class taste. Then, cab-ed back to city square, snacked and snacked and walked around and movied. Harry porter, like FINALLY. like super outdated. Its NICE. Dont understand why are people leaving the cinema and that guy sitting right next to me can actually fall aslp. Tsk. Waste of money and cant appreciate nice movies. Lol. And any idea what that black lord's witch is called? I think she's cute. Ahh. I think ima go play web cam with ah ben first! HOHO. UPDATE SOON. MISS ME!

Omg, Leo just rejected my invite to genting. Super mean.

I seriously start to hate myself not having a room to myself. All my stuffs are scattered in the living room, my shared room with mum. First i lost my mp4 then i lost my wireless mouse, followed by a frigging helmet which is the size bigger than my head now its my passport. That frigging passport which i just used in less than one month ago and renewed like 2 months ago for 80bucks. worst thing is tmr's JB trip was planned and supposedly most looking forward to for the week. SERIOUSLY. THIS IS SO TOTALLY SPOILING MY MOOD. I actually broke my wardrobe's door in anger and threw all my clothes out, which i later find myself dumb to have to hang/fold all of them back again. p.s. im not normally violent. perfectly safe to be around me most of the time. Haha. REALLY REALLY hate my house know. And the stupid fact that my house have no room doors make it even harder to find my passport while everyone's asleep. WTF LA SIA. I cancellled my driving prac for NOTHING! Ima wake up 7am or earlier tmr morning and ransack the whole house. I shall skip school if i cant find that bloody red book. I dont believe things can go missing in this frigging small house. M is SUPER ANGRY.

Oh, FYI I passed my prac8 last friday. Officially waiting for TP. Having heard Terry can actually fail his TP got my nervous system to act up a little more. Wish me luck.

Projects piling up, exams coming and i've a GPA to maintain. Im sorry for last night but you know what im like when it comes to study-concerned. My fun and my work cant coexist. F, my apologies. I shall relax about the projects. (:

Im feeling very guilty. Where's my passport?!?! :(((((

Wooo. I still haven pass my prac 8 and those bloody fellow riding mates passed with what first try and 2nd try?! Sia la. Dont tell me can. Now i feel noob. Like VERY VERY NOOB! Hah. Miraculously i moved my lazy ass out of my bed this evening and went for a swim. A radom attempt to slim down. Though it always turn out to be like epic fail everytime, well at least i did try right. Good job michelle! HAHAHA! Helplessly optimistic or what. Im soo gona fail gems. I'll go kill myself if i get remodule for gems and nothing else through out my poly life. Its gona like sound super ridiculous. Haha. cant anyone pay me to dance instead of me pulling my hair thinking if i should pay money to go dance! Damn. Build me a stage with stereos or a club or a dance studio. I'll love you. Like seriously. For that day. HEH HEH. Yknow its so annoying to have  someone in class who didnt talk to you but still manage to kill your motivation to go to school with that face. Sir, you've remoduled to a wrong class. Either u fuck off or u shut up PLEASE. eeew.

Im neutral.

whats reumbent?

Eh, i was actually stopped at the stupid temperature taking post in school earlier. I swear i wasnt having fever la. Its just the heat. Like no brain sia. Anyway, I failed my bloody prac 8.1! Im depressed and im gona go take a needle and poke myself. Haha. I sound like some kid from fb. anw with like 20points and a immediate failure due to "nearly causing an accident". Its like the 3rd time i went to a nearly cause accident scenerio. Im like first bike.. so... CHIONG AH! Ahh. Super wasted. Super regret. I spent 30bucks for that CHIONG AH, and failed. Epic fail sia michelle. Sigh! Now Im wondering how long its gona take me to get into a real accident on the road. Im getting those warning letters from school and Im still late for class with no attendance. What to do, I live so far. If only those letters are like posted to my mum or sth. Now i hope i live at areas like... commonwealth. Then I can like stab him everytime I see him when i head to school. Eh. Car instructor abandoned me, threw me to another instructor to take over. Am I THAT BAD? Life's all about study,work and licenses. Zr's in camp. I MISS YOU LA! It feels like the whole world's in camp to me. I swear im gona go for a mahjong session or whatever bonding session soon before i start losing my life to unliving things like bikes and breads.

EH! can everyone shut up about me putting on weight. I know its bloody obvious. Im just... idk. STRESSED over having nothing to stress. Haha! Okok, im gona like go on diet soon when the feel comes back!

p.s. I've a bloody girlf in class with a mind of a guy. If only she have no boobs and she's a noob. Omg. Im being ridiculous and it rhymes!

Wooo! counting down 9 hours to end of this stupid exam. Sia la. Let me quote evidence of damage done to my highly sensitive fragile mind due to this exam.

F, This is the worst paranoia I've seen from u sia!
Ben, I know u're super stressed thats why u're finding people to fight with right!

Haha. Eh seriously this sem's is super hard to do last minute stuffs. Maintaining my GPA 3pointers subconsciously got planted into my mind. Too chim topics to be understood by mere readings. I actually have to google some notes myself to understand sia. Dont i regret skipping so much class! haha. Im just saying this out of guilt. :D And F's paper officially ended like yesterday?! No doubt she's still taking the exact same classes and modules as me. She got exempted from exam AGAIN on a piece of smaller/thinner than A5 size paper. Eh. not the first time getting away from exam from an MC, nope not 2nd but like.. 3 times already? Lol. Now, im tempted to do the same.

See, Mitch is not just about what clubbing/pubbing. In fact, im an agelic icon. Seriously, i dont party often can.

Okok. 8 hours 50more mins to go! To HELL WITH LAW! 
Whatever Im high for, idk why. (: